The Most Important Thing

Sindi meditating

Meditation has helped me to feel better, create changes, have more confidence and be happier in my life.

There are many things that are important to me. Just as there have been many experiences that have played integral parts and turning points in my life. One was the discovery of meditation. Not just meditation, but a particular style of meditation that helps the soul – the spiritual being – work consciously with the physical body. I was blessed enough to learn this form of meditation when I was 18 years old. With that said, please know that it is never too late to learn to meditate! I believe we are presented with information when we need it and are ready for it.

At the time that I was introduced to this form of meditation, I was headed down a very dark road. I was drinking alcohol to the point of blacking out, I was often in a state of depression and although I had grand ambitions, I lacked self-esteem. I wanted to accomplish certain things in my life, but didn’t believe that I could. My fears, doubts and emotional pain formed a sad state of reality for me. I wondered if I would ever be happy.

There are many forms of meditation. Instead of staring at the light of a candle outside of  yourself, as I was taught as a child, the style of meditation I practice and teach uses techniques to help you get in touch with your light within.

When I began the Meditation I class at the CDM Spiritual Center, I really didn’t know what to expect. I had heard the term meditation, but my previous introduction, as a young child didn’t resonate with me. I was bored with the idea of staring at a candle and lost interest soon after trying to sit and focus. I didn’t “get it” at that point in my life. While I was drawn to spiritual practices including attending church from the time I was a young child, I didn’t find anything that “clicked” for me. I have always had a strong awareness of God and the spiritual realm. This helped me to know that there was more than what we physically could see. Unseen, spiritual presences have always been very real for me. They are real. We just don’t live in a world that usually validates them as such.

Everything is energy. You are energy. Your aura, the energy field around you is energy. Your body is energy. Everything is energy!

Although I didn’t have many expectations of what was then presented as an eight-week class, I was as curious as an apathetic teenager could be. Before talking with the meditation teacher and signing up for the class, I received an aura healing. This was an interesting experience. I learned that day that your aura is the energy field around you and that an aura healing is a non-touch healing. It was and is a cleansing of your aura, chakras and energy system. I watched the person giving the healing walk around me assisting me to move energy and let go of whatever energy I was ready to. I remember feeling some tingles, which was me experiencing energy being stimulated and moving.

The Meditation I class I took changed my life. I love sharing this information with others. Nothing is for everyone, but I can’t help but share with others what has helped me. Maybe this form of meditation will help you too!

The day of my first class arrived! I was in the class with another young woman, who was about six years older than me. We instantly liked each other and got along great! I thought the teacher was fun and validating too. I loved everything that I was learning. It was all so real to me! All of the techniques including grounding, centering, releasing and running energy made quite an impact on me. I began to feel better, lighter and brighter. My depression and apathy starting changing into enthusiasm and joy. I was becoming a happier person. The changes that were occurring within me were truly phenomenal and it started happening in a very short period of time! The changes I was making internally led to changes externally in my physical reality. As I mentioned, I started to feel better and became happier. I additionally quit drinking cold turkey. I changed how I spent my time and who I spent it with and started becoming excited about life. Truly excited!

If I was to sum up what that meditation class gave me, it was hope. It showed me there was a different way to experience life. I now had tools to help me out of any situation. Techniques to support me throughout my life, whether dark or light, happy or sad or simply the day-to-day experiences that we all have.

I’ve spent this blog post sharing with you the important role that meditation has played in my life. The title of this blog post is, “The Most Important Thing.” You are probably thinking that the most important thing to me is meditation. While it is extremely important and an integral part of my life, if I am to choose the most important thing that I have ever learned, or in actuality, relearned, is that I am spirit. This concept was introduced to me at CDM Spiritual Center where I learned meditation. The idea that I am spirit was revisited, confirmed and experienced first-hand in every meditation class. Why is this the most important thing? Have you ever learned this? Do you understand what it means? I am spirit. You are spirit. We are all spirit. Whether we are housed in human bodies, cat, dog, bird, rabbit, fish, lizard or giraffe bodies. We don’t have a spirit or soul. We ARE spirits. We ARE souls. There is a difference.

Nor do we become spirit when when our body dies. We already are and always will be, spirit. We are NOT our bodies. Our bodies are our vessels to manifest through as spirit, spiritual beings, the souls that we are. It is through meditation that I came to fully understand what it means to be spirit. I continue to strengthen my relationship with myself, as spirit and my physical body through meditation. As I get to know myself and my uniqueness through meditation, I am also able to use the meditative, visualization techniques to let go of that which I no longer want. This process makes more room for what I do want in the present. Physicists have proven that everything is energy. When we let go of energy we don’t want, we make more room for energy we do want. Whether I want to let go of pain, fear, doubt, energy from the past, uncomfortable emotions or change habits, patterns, beliefs or simply enjoy life more fully, these easy-to-use, powerful meditation techniques can help. Out with the old, in with the new!

I wanted to write this blog post because I love sharing with others what has helped me. Meditation and the awareness that comes with it has helped me and continues to help me every day. Many of you have heard me say this and I may have even recommended that you consider adding meditation to your life. But, as I mentioned above, if I were to choose one thing above all else as the most important thing that I have learned in this lifetime and that I want to share with others is that I am spirit. You are spirit. We are all spirit. Again, you are not your body. Your physical body is your vessel, your vehicle, your temple, the home for you, the spirit. The spirit that is you. The spiritual being that is you. The soul that is you. YOU are spirit!

Happy Hiking

Rock sleeping in. :)

Rock was a bit of a sleepyhead yesterday morning. I love that he likes to sleep in. I do too, when I am able to. 🙂

Today I feel happy and energized. Yesterday was blissful and peaceful. Rock was a bit of a sleepyhead, so we took our time getting started yesterday morning. It was a relaxing way to begin our day.

After we both were awake, we each had some water and a little something to eat before heading to check out a recommended hiking trail. And wow! Was it ever beautiful! I felt so joyful, enthusiastic and in touch with the earth and nature!

We can get so busy. It is easy to forget how much taking time out for ourselves can be rejuvenating and actually give us more energy. The more we replenish ourselves and our own well of energy, the more we have to give to others. Giving to ourselves does not take away from others. It diminishes depletion and deprivation within ourselves and creates more abundance so that we have more to share; more to give. Don’t believe me? Try it! You may be pleasantly surprised! 🙂

Hiking trail in Prescott, Arizona surrounded by trees.

The trail that led to relaxation, rejuvenation and many internal, as well as external observations. It truly was a walking meditation with long term healing results, along with joyous memories.

During our replenishing nature hike, we drank in the beauty of the Prescott, Arizona landscape. Trees as far as the eye could see, mountains, birds singing and a cool breeze that would sometimes change to a temporary gust of energetic twirling wind. It would make a whistling sound that made it seem like the trees were speaking to us. At times it felt a bit eerie, but mostly it was a gentle, yet powerful healing experience.

Rock wanted to turn back before I did, so I carried him for awhile, so he could rest his legs and have an upper level view of the world. After a little while, I agreed that it was time to turn back. When I set him down, Rock took off running seeming to be in a great hurry to get out of there. Instead of remaining on the trail, he decide to scale a huge boulder with great zeal! He wanted to keep going up higher, but there wasn’t sufficient footing for my larger than Chihuahua paw sized feet, so I had to put an end to the ascent. Sorry Rock! And sorry to the rock Rock was climbing for putting an end to the fun it was providing and the obvious appreciation it was receiving from Chi-ROCK.

Unfortunately, during his adventure, my Rock got pricked by a small cactus that was growing in a crevice of mother nature’s rock. Luckily I found no cactus needles or prickly hairs embedded in Rock’s mouth where he had apparently tried to kiss the cactus. Following several lip licks and self provided mouth massage movements, Rock appeared fine, as if nothing had happened and we continued our descent down the large rock formation. I was attempting to take a photo of Rock on his rock, but taking care of his potential injury took presadence, so you will have to use your imagination for this particular visual. 🙂 Luckily, Rock was okay and there were no lasting effects or reoccuring signs that he had had his first face to face run in with a cactus.

As of today there still have been no signs of residual effects, so all is well, thank goodness! We didn’t hike in the mountains today, but took what has become a daily walk in one of the pretty local parks. We actually take several walks everyday, but the park walk was our longest one today.

My Road Trip is a Journey Within

I'm not very skilled and lack experience (obviously!) when it comes to "Selfies" photographs, but self confrontation leading to self healing is a huge part of my life.

I’m not very skilled and lack experience (obviously!) when it comes to “Selfies” photographs, but self confrontation leading to self healing is a huge part of my life.

My self described “working road trip” was initially just an option and somewhat of a romantic notion. I liked the idea of freedom on the road, as well as growing my business and helping others by venturing to different areas. I have met so many lovely animals and people and have had such tremendous self healing experiences that I could never regret my choice to do it.

It has given me extra time to meditate, focus on myself and spend time with my loyal canine companion, Rock. However, it hasn’t all been smooth sailing. There have been times I’ve questioned my decision and contemplated turning back. But despite hardships and challenges, I have chosen to keep my commitment to stay on the road until I come back to San Diego mid March.

Grandma Sally

Happy advance Birthday to my beautiful Grandma Sally. She would have been 95 years old next month. I miss her smile, her laugh, her friendship.

I will be arriving in San Diego March 16 or 17. March 17 would have been my Grandma Sally’s 95th birthday. She passed away in 2012 and I still miss being able to physically see her. Although I can still tune into her spiritually, she has moved on and of course, it is not the same as being able to physically see her, hug her, sit with her, laugh and talk. We talked about everything, including her death. We also talked about her boyfriends who I nicknamed, her “Two Tony’s”; Celebrity Chef, Anthony Bourdain and Tony Soprano. When the actor that played Tony Soprano, James Gandolfini, passed away less than a year after my Grandma’s death, I was shocked and saddened. I hoped that him and my Grandma would at least get to say a passing hello, as spirit.

So much of this journey has been about me realizing how sad my body is. Not just from the death of my Grandma and her ” boyfriend”. I have experienced sad losses throughout my entire life. In order to keep going and functioning, I have put some grieving on hold. This isn’t healthy, nor does it work. If we ignore and do not deal with any aspect of our growth, it can and does effect us. I have dealt with some of the pain, grief, sadness and other heavy emotions and energies associated with my losses, but I am aware of how much is still there.

As a child, I moved often. First from my mother’s womb, then from the hospital room to my first home. Just three weeks after being born I moved again to a different residence. Moving itself is a loss. We let go of one home to make room for the new. So there is, at least usually, some type of a replacement, but loss is involved nonetheless.

This pattern of moving from one place to another continued throughout my childhood and into my teen years. I did live in the same house all four years of high school. What happened when we moved is what brought me the most sadness. Saying goodbye to friends. Over and over and over again. My neighborhood and school playmates and very sadly, often my pets. To this day I have a special affinity for black Labs and Shepherds. The memory of the animal control truck coming to our new house to pick up my friends, Silver, our black Labrador Retriever mix, King, our German Shepherd, and Wolf, our Shepherd/Wolf mix, when I was six years old is burned into my memory with confusion. I still do not understand why we couldn’t keep our dogs or our beautiful cats that were picked up too. There weren’t many cats left in our care at that point because most of them were left behind with a neighbor when we moved from our old house. Just writing this hurts. So many animal friends I loved taken and deserted. So sad! I do remember a cute black kitten that I loved. I should mention I have a thing for black cats to this day too.

Here is one of my new black cat friends, Ace. I met him in Sedona, Arizona at Sedona Pet Supply. Love him!

Here is one of my new black cat friends, Ace. I met him in Sedona, Arizona at Sedona Pet Supply. Love him!

You see why I have so much sadness within me?! I am determined, however to keep working on it. While I need to let my body grieve its losses, I prefer the feeling of happiness. So, I’m going to always aim for that!

As we so often do when there are unresolved issues, I continued the pattern of moving frequently into my adulthood. This created a lack of stability in my childhood. However, it is a familiar feeling to me. We often prefer familiarity, even if it hinders us or may not be the most beneficial option.

One of the other things that became apparent early on in my road trip was my desire to create more stability in my life. Although it makes me cringe a little, I want it for myself, my dog and any other animals that may decide to join us. So even though I may still travel for work or vacations, I want a physical place to call home.